Saturday, January 7, 2012

Day 7 - A pic of something that has the biggest impact on me

This is the sort of topic that makes me freak out a little. I know which people might see this post, so I feel like I need to cater to them. For example, the thought of someone in my family seeing this makes me want to reach for an old family photo; coming from an Evangelical Christian background, I'm terrified that if I don't put a picture of a Bible or Euro-Jesus that people will leave passive-aggressive messages about how I'm not a very good Christian. I talk a huge game about how much I loooove music, so I feel like maybe a guitar or a stack of sheet music should show up or people will think maybe I don't really like it all that much.

Thankfully, I found a picture on Facebook that illustrates the thing that impacts me most:

Peer pressure.

Don't get me wrong, I totally wanted to jump on that trampoline, but when there are two other people also jumping and you're afraid of heights and the photographer is telling you all to hold hands and jump at the same time...

Anyway, the point is that the terror on my face contrasted with the excitement on Mike and Kevin's is the perfect illustration of how I roll in many situations.

I don't have friends that actively pressure me to do anything. Seriously, no one gets on my case to do stuff I don't want to do. However, I create a lot of pressure in my mind and end up doing things that I don't really want to do because I think my friends will look down on me if I don't. For example, I've blown off plans to spend an entire Saturday writing music because a friend kindly asked if I wanted in on some game, and I didn't feel comfortable saying "No thanks! Maybe later/tomorrow." I think I'm getting better, though.

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